When you don't know

What do you do when you don’t know what to do? Where do you go when you don’t know where you want to get? Have you woke up one day, early morning with the sun in your eyes and the birds singing in your years and wandered where do you go from here?

You try to remember what was the plan. Get a good job, fall in love, maybe make a family, but you can't really remember what was supposed to feel like having all these. Or maybe none of it came true, you feel that you moved around in circles and you keep coming back to same point, to the same problems, to the same morning with the sun in your eyes when you wonder "where to now?".

Where do you go from here? And the answer is so simple you almost miss it: back to you. Always back to you. Back to what you love, back to what you dream, back to what you dreamed of when you were a child if you have the guts, back to who you really are beyond all the what you should be or must be for the others.

Riding a bike in the park on weekend, eating pasta in the middle of the night with a bear and a great movie, singing aloud in a karaoke bar with your friends or with total strangers, traveling to India, getting a dog even if you know it will eat your black, classy, business shoes, running around the block Sunday evening despite your old fat neighbors that would kill you with their eyes because you are still slim. Taking dancing classes, or learning how to box, joining an organization of volunteers hoping that you still have something to offer. Learning how to open your wings and fly. Again. Or maybe for the first time.

All the things that you think you have to do, they are not really yours. Under that "must be" recipe hides the true you. Your passions, your fears, your dreams, your hidden wishes. Nothing is ridiculous or illogical, or not for you or too late for you. Absolutely nothing.

Life is so short you couldn't imagine. You still can't. Not until you are 70 or 80 and your body is not really what it use to be. At 30 you are amazing and life is an open space. 

What you do when you don't know what to do? You start living. 

Where should you go when you don't know where to go? Anywhere you want because the sky is the limit and the world is endless. It's sole purpose is to help you define yourself and grow as a miraculous flower. And it waits for you.